3rd day only.. i m suffocating!!! But the most pleasant thing of today is that my sweetheart bf came to lunch with me! very sweet of him right! yeah, it was so amazing that i woke up motivated to go work but then not at all motivated after lunch.. I hope that i can survive through my 12weeks there.. Seriously i do think that our sch/lecturer should give them a guide on what interns are expected to do and all... I am trying to be positive every moment by telling myself positive things. I know that we are supposed to learn but then learning something that you have no interest in is really killing! Now i sort of regret getting B, B+, C+ for my programming modules esp J2EE.. i tot that my result was not fantastic but then after talking to the rest attached there i know why i m given this proj.. I know this sounds weird that i wanted better GPA yet i wish i did worst for my programming modules.. my parter say serve me right for doing better than him in J2EE but then C+ is not good!! Please stay strong, yizhen! u can do it! where is ur determination and perseverance in getting ur things done?! Hai i feel bad making those busy ppl over there take time out to explain to me my doubts but then i am not strong in my programming, seeing their codes which have to retrieve here and add there is making me very very very giddy and i will be blur... So what i do is i note down every method that i tried to understand, but this is not helping me feeling less stress, only help me to be focus on what i supposed to do.. Okay i m too tired to continue ranting.. Everything happens for its reason, so no use comparing that nobody does such hardcode programming other than us, cos surely have other attachment ppl also. I just want to wish myself all the best! Jia you!
