How i wish monday can come as soon as possible. i am so tired and so stress over handling so many things.
After project presentation on mon and POA project submission i will be more relax.
The next few days gonna be packed again.
Tmr i guess i will have to spend whole day in sch just like today. SIAN!
Sat i have meeting in the morning(yet to prepare a lot), project in e afternoon then go family gathering. Marathon again. Sun bxb in e morning, meeting in e afternoon. Both yet to prepare also.
Anw i am actually here to upload some CNY photos.
This is my bed. The first time i change e case alone by myself.=p Surprise that i have such strength=x
This is e final product of the dumpling.
Now my nephew and niece!
Look! Zacc is kissing Claudia! lucky girl. but he kissed me on my cheek, forehead and mouth before=x
One more! and u look at his face! so sayang his jiejie=)
Oh! this part is a miss! they both kissed on the mouth and it was so sweet!
Now claudia is so happy that she posted an "act-cute" face..
Then a proper one=)
Some more random pics...
My fav girl..
Daddy's fav boy.. daddy's fav girl is taking this pic for them=x
Now lets all take=)
My new year wish is that everyone is blessed with good health. esp both ah ma and mother.=)
zhen is tickled with love at 11:12:00 PM
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Monday, January 26, 2009
Toto wearing her qi pao and wishes everyone a great year ahead. Stay healthy and cheerful=)
First time.. On the first day of CNY we will be gg visiting. Meanwhile i am just here to entertain myself a lil. Wanted to post the pictures taken just now but am too lazy to do so. It was dumpling making session. nice nice. But then i was just e camera lady and the taster=x Okay la i did contribute in one but then they make one nice. fast and nice.
3hrs of sleep can keep me awake till now is really not easy. dunno why i am not tired yet. Maybe heaven feel it. But tot that i heaven do my UAT, sequence diagram and use case i feel TIRED=x Hopefully wed can fast fast integrate. Next mon can fast fast over. hee
zhen is tickled with love at 1:39:00 PM
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Sunday, January 25, 2009
i have been emo-ing for the past few post. its time to bring back my mood for CNY=)
Although after these 2 days i still have to think abt other things but then FOR THESE 2 DAYS i shall put them aside. Just enjoy collecting red packet, eating, relaxing..=)
But i really really can't wait for project submission! Dun feel like looking at it at all. ZZZ.
Maybe i should learn to pamper myself more and enjoy life like how i used to hor.
Before i go, Happy New Year to everyone. May everyone be blessed with good health, happiness and achieve their own target set for the year=)
zhen is tickled with love at 4:44:00 PM
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Thursday, January 22, 2009
Hee. No more tests! But projects!! one major, one small yet 30% of e module. And i need to glance through the 65pages report to look for 2 questions. zzz Nevertheless it was still a nice day. The moment i walk out of the lecture hall i felt so relieve! i guess i really very nerous during any test and exam until i feel so stress. haha Then went with candy to shopping arcade to look for shoes cos her scandal's strip came off. But never sell so got super glue. Thu is just not her day.. last last last thu her jeans zip came off. and she got pins from bookstore. this thu she got superglue. LOL
After that we went to the discussion room to relax awhile as we have 4hrs break! Then after that we got a little bored and decided to go to AMK for lunch and play a couple of game at the library then go look for present.
Walked quite a bit before reaching the place for us to have our lunch. Then after ordering they were complaining that e food was very expensive. Cos coffee shop and their food sell at $5-$6. When their food come it was kinda terrible as they said. Then candy went to take photos of it to put on stomp..-_-" I was feeling bad that it was cos by me. Cos the place they want to go to does not sell vegetarian food. I dunno why i always feel bad abt that when i know i sld know. Probably due to my strong sense of guilt again. After eating we went to library to relax. Now i feel like slacking already. i want to watch movie, go walk walk and everything except work! No sch for me tmr cos i will be gg to the doctor..
After that 4hrs break then we went for a less than 30mins lesson.. LOL. Tue went to sch just because of a less than 3mins lesson. My tutor came in and said.. "actually today's practical is opinion, u may do it on ur own time" then we can go off le. DOTS
Something i find it sweet to share.. Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone, and do not be troubled about the future, for it has yet to come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering.
zhen is tickled with love at 7:49:00 PM
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Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Finally one down! But i dunno if it was worth me to feel so happy. Cos i think e ppr totally make me stunned. It was harder than i can expect. When i read e qns i was just in shocked. And i feel so lost cos i spent a lot of time reading my notes again and again, trying to understand what they are saying.. I write so many notes and still transfer them into this A4 ppr. 9 Chapters into an A4 ppr was not easy cos a lot of theory things. In e end, the test.. i dunno what i was writing. So now i only can hope that miracly i can pass. JavaEE really isnt easy at all... Got 1 qn 10marks, i nearly gave up and cheated myself it was a dist qn. But in e end i wrote something. and i was so smart to do something funny. i was so tired of writing e getter and setter cos i felt that i will be writing something e same 5times just e different attribute so i comment it with... //getter and setter for name bla bla bla. i m sure e tutor marking this will laugh at my laziness. and if it entertains him/her maybe he/she will just take it that i wrote? When i told my friends they were laughing at me.. But then i feel safe cos i never hear anyone say e ppr was managable. Including KC, the pro.. He was totally "screwed" by the ppr that he just gave up and copied whatever he had on e piece of ppr. Above it.. the lecture hall that we had our test was a super uncomfortable position for me. I feel my neck droppping and my backbone hurting. But i just ignore it cos i dun have time to think of it. Haha. And i manage to endure for e 1hr 40mins. Clap for myself=)
Tmr another to go and i will only have projects to think before my CNY. I seriously feel so tired but i must motivate myself to study for it.. Cos its 30% and i dun think we have time for e 30% project so.. its kinda risky. So now i shall go.. Blog another time!=)
zhen is tickled with love at 6:47:00 PM
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Sunday, January 18, 2009
I wonder where did my passion for life went to???
Somehow i feel like i am breaking down soon. I've been trying to be optimistic and act like i am fine which is the part of me that i dun like. Why do i always hide my inner most feeling so that i wont make ppl worry and feel unhappy for me. Yes sch work contributes e most to my moody-ness. But other things also. Sometimes i tried my best to understand everyone in my life yet i feel that i still needs to be understood. Perhaps i m too weird to be understood and when i am unhappy or dislike something i will still keep it to myself.The closer i am to a person,the more i will hide it. I feel like i need a big big hug cos i am feeling so scare and so lost... So not sure what am i supposed to do so that i will not feel so down. Sometimes i even have e thinking of being tired of my life..tired of every single thing. But then when i think of my loved ones, somehow i will try to embrace myself and show them that i am happy. I think i am a good actress.. Cos even my parents cannot really tell sometimes.
Enough of the emo-ing part. I will be fine soon but this seems like a cycle.Perhaps thats why life has its ups and downs. Next week is quite stressful week. cos of the 2 tests and i dunno why i dun have e motivation to study again. But then i know i have to force myself to. Because of the test i will only have project and then its Chinese New Year. Now it don't seems like a big deal to me anymore. its like oh CNY is next week! So? haha
i felt stupid that i took so long, wasted so much of ur time to realise and sort my thoughts out. and i dunno what to say to u for being there for me all these while.
Here comes my exam time table. Time to stress again. Dunno why i still will freak out during exam. I like take some many exam before le.zzz Anw i have some thing to look forward to.. thats our class chalet! Another one they still planning in process is 3B's chalet. Actually i dun really like to go but then i like gatherings so shall go for both=) Today finish 3 quiz le. 2 more to go next week before chionging project time and CNY is round the corner. But i dun have the mood cos its just the wrong time! the next week is presentation le. There goes my CNY. But then i will also not have much time to do cos my family so big...hai.
The good thing is that i got all my new year clothes le. finally. Thank goodness this year they didnt spend too much on me cos i was not very on mood for that 2 shooping occasion so wear what also seems to look funny. haha
zhen is tickled with love at 10:55:00 PM
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Saturday, January 10, 2009
Alright i am kinda tired so i shall let the pictures do the talking for tonight's meet up with the girls. First time i have e "chance" to share... Thanks alot darlings...
As usual we gossip, update each other abt life, crazy and take pictures. Although i was kinda tired as i had a long day today, it was still good meeting them.
Some of the crazy shots...
My "ex-stead".. oops. jk la. Someone say she looks like my gf! i am straight okay!
Cupcakes...
4girls 1friendship=)
zhen is tickled with love at 12:02:00 AM
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Tuesday, January 6, 2009
It's marvellous.. I have talk to js for 1hr 40mins last night and dan for another 1hr 23mins this morning.. I think i nearly burn my ears. And both topic was abt a girl(js's EX-gf). I dun want to blog anything abt this girl cos i think i will make myself look like her. But can she stop trying to go to ppl's blog and tag that she is not angry just plainly unhappy that her EX-bf talks to girls. I am glad that js did not mention much abt me to her or not i think i will end up same as dan. or maybe worst if she knows something abt us. Got scolded that i am a *****(female dog) trying to talk to her *jerk* EX-bf. Thank goodness she knows that i treat js as a platonic friend What js had told me just make me feel sorry for him.. Like what he say.. "i dun even feel like meeting her. i feel pathetic that i have to hide that i still sms and talk to e girls i used to fall for"...
*pardon me for e language. i dun wish to pollute brain but i am quoting from someone. e EX is in caps cos its EX and she can still want to tie him.
I really wish my friend all the best cos he is serving NS now and should be already at Thailand now undergoing his training. I hope that he wont be affected too much by what happen or not i feel so unsafe for him.
Well to conclude i feel that u want to win ur bf heart u just got to be understanding and not so jealous. Jealousy really can kill. U have no faith in ur r/s then i think forget it, dun make ppl suffer with u. I dunno if u will read this and i dun care u are gg to tag me and scold me whatever uncivilise words u gonna use. I really hope that this failure in ur r/s, u can put down and reflect on urself before u move on.
Alright. Back to my own life.. This week most lesson had been cancelled. I only have class for 3 modules. Yest i had sch from 1-3pm then 6.40-8.30pm. Today i have sch from 2-3pm and 4-6pm. Then i have holiday for e next 3 days. BUT thats e time for me to study my quizzes for the upcoming week. Next week i have quiz for DMID on mon, SWENG on tue, OS on wed. The following week i have quiz for JAVAEE on wed and ACCT on thu. Both weightage 30%! So now u see why i am having holiday for but i not quite happy abt it=x But then for those involve in open house then good luck. Maybe they can manage better than me. Come to Poly i become so inactive in CCA. haha. Partly due to laziness, another part is i really dun have so much time for that.
Got this want to sick feeling again. Well it always starts with a simple flu. I hope it won't get worst. Another personal thing is that. It is gg to be a week and i am still feeling e same. Maybe i do try very hard to act more like what i am supposed to. But i feel sorry that i have to make u feel unsecure. I know u know that this is not what i chose but i still feel sorry for u. I am really trying very hard to put it down. But then when it comes back to me, i still feel scare. Argh! I have confidence in us but then i dunno why e feeling just dun go away. Again thanks for the understanding all these while.=)
zhen is tickled with love at 11:38:00 AM
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Saturday, January 3, 2009
finally i am feeling better. dun like to be in such dull mood and spoils ppl's mood.
Anw yest had deployment for the project which means e last time we see ms lee. so sad. and we change to another teacher and our thu timetable later by 2hrs and now we have 2hrs break. Sian! Dunno why i dun like half way change teacher.. But maybe he is good too. Actually it does not really matter anymore=x After that then i dun feel like doing project le cos after so many days finally my mood is back to normal. So in e end went to watch movie. Ip Man. Another action movie which i only watch in years. But then it was a nice show. its a 4 star rating but then some scenes are too scary for me. i dun dare to see. funny me. horror movie i not scare when see blood splash out i very scare. After that meet dear then together we go to yuan xiang to meet e other tong xiu to have a dinner with zijian TZ. e photo taken i shall upload when i get it=) After dinner we went to mind cafe.. Reach home already 12 plus le. Then bath le fell asleep quite soon after that.. A tiring but nice day. Cos i did not have to use much brain. hee
zhen is tickled with love at 10:43:00 PM
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Thursday, January 1, 2009
Happy New Year to everyone!
Yest marks the end of year 2008. If u ask me to recall abt the year.. i can barely rmbr much abt what has happened for the past 356 and 1/4 days of the year. Nevertheless, I am still thankful that i had leant, grown and being loved. For the coming year, i will still try to seek for areas to improve as a daughter, friend, student, teacher, hx and tong xiu and passerby.
Yest i had also made a decision which i dunno the outcome of it but then fang is right.. If i dun try to cross that line and give myself a chance to experience what i had never been dare to experience i may never know what i really want. So i really hope that this is what i want. I dun hope that at the end of the day i hurt ppl who have cared for me and showered their love for me. LMCB.
Before gg to my cousin's house for party, they went shopping for my clothes and it was not productive. Cos we ended up getting tops. Which means i have to go back for more shopping trip. I was praying that i can get dress then i dun have to keep trying and it will be cheaper. But i was dreaming. Cos how can my cousins stop buying at enough. They will stop at they think is enough = Super alot.=x After that went to play with claudia and this sweet girl keep sticking to me yest. I tot that her presence will make me not so sian but i was wrong. I still feel so lethagic. No mood for anything. No energy to think abt anything. But i have so much to do... Hai. My parents keep asking me to have a break from work. Go relax for a day or 2. but then how to... Hai.
Kind words can be short and easy to speak, but their echoes are truly endless.
