alright today had a good long chat with dearie.. hai hai hai.. i only can conclude that 现实与梦想是有差距的... Things that i learn when chatting with her.. 1)Dun expect too much. 2)Dun expect anything in return if u r willing to shower ur love to that person cos thats true love. 3)Understanding and compromising is what's most impt in a r/s. Looking at my friends, i feel that i m e most fortunate... Because in a r/s one at e verge of ending, broke up one still need time to heal e wound, heaven get into one is losing confident in herself... But then sometimes.. if e feeling dun come, it just dun... In fact in life we are always making choices. right choices, choices that u might regret but like DCS say accept it if u have already made e choice. Not saying that u have to accept it even u dun feel e same anymore.. But since u all get together le.. there must be a fate that is not so simple.. so why not treasure it? Next thing is that if u r not prepared to love e person for e rest of ur life then dun say yes and then in e end u feel that no more feeling and thats it.. whatever e time and e love e person had showered upon u?
Alright enough of that... Now i having my 6weeks break! It gonna past very fast so i had got to treasure it.. Camp planning, reading, dating, gatherings, pack my room... Dan was saying that i am always busy with with e ppl around me and not abt myself.. But then what is there for me to be busy with.. She ask me to go shop for clothes cos today on e street 2 ppl mistaken me and sec sch! But the thing is i got whatever i need... And i like my life busying with other ppl's business cos i am just that kpo. Born to be, i can't help it either...
Tmr gg sentosa with canice and theo.. e tot of sentosa is scary but then many ppl want to go there.. lol Anw right now i am so into the nature reserve cos i like nature.. i will explore them.. city life is simply boring and stressful.. So i hope that it won't rain.=)
zhen is tickled with love at 6:30:00 PM
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Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Alright its picture upload time! Fang's birthday celebration on 080808(start of olympics)...
Let us first take a look at e crazy birthday girl... Now.. her crazy friends(except e one in red shirt=x)..
Close up...
The darlings..
Now.. its Mother's birthday celebration on 240808(end of olympics)..
Zacchaeus having fun..
Claudia also want to join in..
The Mummy, daughter and grandchildren..
My 2 loves..
zhen is tickled with love at 1:38:00 PM
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Thursday, August 21, 2008
THE HEART PROGRAM - author unknown Customer Service Rep: Yes, Ma’am, how can I help you today? Customer: Well, after much consideration, I’ve decided to install love.Can you guide me through the process? CS Rep: Yes, I can help you. Are you ready to proceed? Customer: Well, I’m not very technical, but I think I’m ready to install now. What do I do first? CS Rep: The first step is to open your HEART. Have you located your HEART ma’am? Customer: Yes I have, but there are several other programs running right now. Is it okay to install while they are running? CS Rep: What programs are running ma’am? Customer: Let’s see, I have PAST-HURT.EXE, LOW-ESTEEM.EXE, GRUDGE.EXE,and RESENTMENT.COM running right now. CS Rep: No problem. LOVE will gradually erase PAST-HURT.EXE from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory, but it will no longer disrupt other programs. LOVE will eventually overwrite LOW-ESTEEM.EXE with a module of its own called HIGH-ESTEEM.EXE. However, you have to completely turn off GRUDGE.EXE and RESENTMENT.COM. Those programs prevent LOVE from being properly installed. Can you turn those off ma’am? Customer: I don’t know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how? CS Rep: My pleasure. Go to your Start menu and invoke FORGIVENESS.EXE. Do this as many times as necessary until GRUDGE.EXE and RESENTMENT.COM have been completely erased. Customer: Okay, done. LOVE has started installing itself automatically. Is that normal? CS Rep: Yes. You should receive a message that says it will reinstall for the life of your HEART. Do you see that message? Customer: Yes I do. Is it completely installed? CS Rep: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other HEART’s in order to get the upgrades. Customer: Oops. I have an error message already. What should I do? CS Rep: What does the message say? Customer: It says “ERROR 412 - PROGRAM NOT RUN ON INTERNAL COMPONENTS.” What does that mean? CS Rep: Don’t worry ma’am, that’s a common problem. It means that the LOVE program is set up to run on external HEARTS but has not yet been run on your HEART. It is one of those complicated programming things, but in non-technical terms it means you have to “LOVE” your own machine before it can “LOVE” others. Customer: So what should I do? CS Rep: Can you pull down the directory called “SELF-ACCEPTANCE”? Customer: Yes, I have it. CS Rep: Excellent. You’re getting good at this. Customer: Thank you. CS Rep: You’re welcome. Click on the following files and then copy them to the “MYHEART” directory: FORGIVE-SELF.DOC, REALIZE-WORTH.TXT, and ACKNOWLEDGE-LIMITATIONS.DOC. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching any faulty programming. Also, you need to delete VERBOSE-SELF-CRITIC.EXE from all directories, and then empty your recycle bin afterwards to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back. Customer: Got it. Hey! My HEART is filling up with new files. SMILE.MPG is playing on my monitor right now and it shows that PEACE.EXE, and CONTENTMENT.COM are copying themselves all over my HEART. Is this normal? CS Rep: Sometimes. For others it takes a while, but eventually everything gets downloaded at the proper time. So, LOVE is installed and running. You should be able to handle it from here. One more thing before I go. Customer: Yes? CS Rep: LOVE is freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everybody you meet. They will in turn share it with other people and they will return some similarly cool modules back to you. Customer: I will. Thanks for your help. By the way, what’s your name? CS Rep: You can call me the Divine Cardiologist, also known as The Great Physician, but most call me God. Most people feel all they need is an annual check-up to stay heart-healthy, but the manufacturer (Me) suggests a schedule of daily maintenance for maximum efficiency. Put another way, keep in touch.
zhen is tickled with love at 11:05:00 AM
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Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Finally 2 more papers left!! Now a bit contradiction.. Exam end have a lot of things to do but i can't wait for next mon to come! This will be a short post cos i have nothing much to say.. But to my girl... I really hope you will continue to stay strong like you always had.. Yes its a good thing that you know that u are to be partly blamed for what happened.. But i still want to let you know that he is being too extreme and i had never seen such a guy. This is not love.. Love won't have such deep hatred after a breakup and if its cause he's angry.. He won't curse you. SO i think that u dun have to waste ur energy and time thinking.. What u need to think now is to be serious abt ur next relationship, think u before u act. If there's no chemistry, give urself a bit of time to think.. dun be in a rush to jump in and realise what is u both dun hope to realise.
This email that i received.. seems nice..=)
The guy who loves u The guy who love you, can’t tell you the reason why he love you. He only knew that, in his eyes, you are the only one
The guy who love you, actually always make you mad, but he do never know what stupid thing did he done, as everything he done, is for your own good.
The guy who love you, seldom praise you, but in his heart, you are the best, only he know it,
The guy who love you, will scold or complaint if you din’t reply his message but others, because he cares.
The guy who love you, Only drop his tears in front of you, when you try to wipe his tears, you are touching his heart, the heart which beat for you.
The guy who love you, will remember every word u said, even its accidentally. and he will use the word always at the nick of time.
The guy who love you, will not give any promise that easily, because they don’t want to break the promise, they wan t you to believe him and they want to give you happiest and safest life ever after.
The guy who love you, always tell you not to think too much, because they already plan it for you, he want to give u the best in the future, he want to give you a surprise, believe him that he can do it.
The guy who love you, maybe can't remember speciall occasion like somekind of anniversary, but, he do know that, every second he live, he's loving you, no matter what day is today
The guy who love you, won't said "i love you" that easily, because everything he done for you is showing that he love you already, but only he will tell the word at the special situation, because he dun wan u to misunderstand, he want u to know that he love you.
The guy who love you, will feel that, sometimes, something hav to tell for only once, because he thought that you might already understand him, if talk so much, he will feel that theres nothing you will cherish.
The guy who love you, will go to airport to fetch you, he won't carry a bunch of rose and call you darling like what you expect. but he will carry your ludgage and ask you "why are you becoming that thin within two days?" with his sincere heart.
The boy who love you, will listen quietly to you, when you are mad, and when you finished, he will said, you still got class tomorrow, sleep early. with smile.
The boy who love you, don't know that whether he should call you when you are angry, but he will sent a message to you after few hours, if you ask him why he call that late, he will said, when you are angry, my explanation are all rubbish. But when you calm down, my explanation will only really works.
The boy who love you, always call you little girl, but everytime he want to make a big decision, he will first want to hear your advice.
The guy who love you, don't like little toy like teddy bear, but he will always put the bear you gift him at his bed.
The guy who love you, while quarrelling, he will apologize uncontrollably, althought you are the one who's wrong, and later, he will sent a message to you with " baby, actually you know its your fault, you know it urself"
The guy who love you, while really miss you, he will want to buy a bunch of rose and wait for you stupidly under your apartment.but he never knows, what he bought us daisy, but doesn't matter, because in his heart, that's roses.
The guy who love you, seldom said sweet words, but you know, his kisses already transfer his all passion to you.
The guy who love you, if he can't always see you, he will try to make himself busy, for not to have anytime to remember you, because he knew, if he did, he will keep on missing you until he could do nothing.
zhen is tickled with love at 2:07:00 PM
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Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Today is a mixed feeling day. But i want to update. hee
Early morning went to visit e doc. again not a good experience once i need to see him.=p
Then daddy want to send me to sch but i see still early so i say i want to take bus.
And met candy on the bus!!
Because of her new hair style we had a laughing day.
When we reach , as usual e rest still at home, 1 still sleeping.
So she wanted breakfast then go to mac there.
Pw joined us after a while.
Then we went up to study and maryam again was e last to reach so we decided to be naughty and give her a cert for it.
I was asked to design cos they claim i have better hand writing. So sorry maryam=x
Then after "prize-giving" we managed to study for a while and our topic change again. About sportswomen then models then virgin then ghost then abt gg swimming or cycling(both i can't do for e mean time) .. So talk abt all these then no mood for studying le, therefore today is a very unproductive day. Thus i declare that cannot study in big group. And hungry le so went to have lunch.. After lunch went back lib no more seat so we went back to blk L and then never really study alot also cos online then start to conference abt candy's rebonded hair.. And my crazy classmates suggested TTFC-TianTian's Fan Club..
Even have a fan club in face book setted up and also logo. It was known as candy's historical moment. I think she must be bursting.lol Then she ask me and peiwen dun go out later get blown away. Check out the conference...
zhen is tickled with love at 10:22:00 PM
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Sunday, August 10, 2008
Argh! one more week to exam!
Yest morning went for meeting of the year end xiao ren camp. So exciting.. looking forward to it cos this is the first time and hopefully to all planners and BYs to benefits from it.
After meeting go home and eat lunch then bath and rest awhile then go tuition.
After tuition go to dan's house and had a long chat with auntie and her sisters cos i very long never go le then auntie keep talking to me=p
We studied and watch a bit of NDP cum fireworks from dan house(clear view!) then 7 plus, fang wen came to pick us up. Initially i wanted to go home but then i was dragged to bukit timah to join akira, salvia(dan's elder sis) and the rest. Then i keep saying i want to go home so fang wen volunteered to drive me home, i insist on nearest mrt or bus stop convenient for me to go home then he say his car can't stop-_- In the end, they also leave to go clubbing so alight me at bishan, where i had dinner and took bus home.
Today go BXB and met yiting on the way so send her to BXB then FTZ dun have to go.. After that BXB as usual. Finish go home and rest, study then eat. Around evening go to ah ma house then cos they got new dog. Hee i prefer dog to cat.=p But mummy scare like mad then i keep purposely carry to her which scares her like mad=x After that go and buy things and eat before going home..
Supposed to be studying now but my downstairs is so loud that i cant concentrate! The interesting thing is they invite jack neo and gang to sing the songs they sing in money no enough 2. Nice. lol No need go down also can hear, somemore got 2 combi! Study after 11 ba=)
Jia you to all havin exam!
zhen is tickled with love at 10:26:00 PM
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Friday, August 8, 2008
Morning had an useless revision lecture... Woke up so early to go listen to the butterfly story which i have already memorise it. Then later was break soon after. And he went through tutorials which already have e answer le so slack until he say can go off lo. Then went to bishan to print photo, popular to get some things for ya ling and then go eat and home. Rested till fang called to say she reach le then went to bath and meet her first cos she came straight from sch. Then waited for e rest to come before we set off.. Before hwee come, we took lots of photo of birthday girl cos we made her wear party hat and hold e big big balloon. Then she went a lil haywire... Doing all sorts of nonsense. Finally everyone reach le then we took 153 to serangoon there and go see see durian stall. Then walk to da zhi ran for dinner.. And i am so happy to hear their comments. They say nice and want to come again next time.=) Then after eating we had photo-whoring again.. Then to durian stall then strolk to kovan. NTUC first. And to kovan to walk and talk and sit down and take picture. and.. can u imagine we met 3 SJCian at e same spot and what we do. Got excited, took picture and hug. Like stardard action. Then we decided to leave before more ppl come. Anw so looking forward to our next date, which is to make sushi!=) HOLIDAYS faster come! 3 more weeks! To be exact 17 more days!! Post photos another time=)
zhen is tickled with love at 10:49:00 PM
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Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Finally presentation is over! The feeling is great but at the point of presentation, it was not great at all! Cos the independent marker was a scary man, and everyone from my class got roasted by him. Then he asked to see e 3 tier and since i was e last to present i said i will answer his question. I was stunned at his question too. Think i was too nervous to think logically. Mr Yong tried to help by asking me to refer to sequence diagram. It did not help cos there was not a single smile on his face which was what i scared most. Anw its over. Just a lil unfair feeling that alot of effort was put in but then he seems interested in only knowing what he want to know just that i seriously think when i am nervous and stress i can even forget my name.. haha Now is e next part which is studying for exam, another nightmare for me cos there's 4 modules this sem, all memory work. Today went to watch Money No Enough 2 and i tell u its a nice show. Worth watching but i was too touched that a lot of my tears was flowing down esp when the grandma was sent to hospital and how e kids make her stay in that environment yet she put on a fake smile, getting old is scary.. But i know i will never do that to my parents. Just that i wont be able to give them as much love as i received.. But then regarding choosing over parents or kids, is a question mark to me... Maybe when one is in that situation only can one understand and have the answer... Today feel so relax cos away from work but then behind my brain i did secretly tot of my stress..=x
zhen is tickled with love at 9:24:00 PM
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Friday, August 1, 2008
Finally. The project is submitted! This project is the most rush de out of e 3 sems. But really thanks alot to chick who had spent so much of his time guiding and helping me till very late. Really very late. He not only help me but my team mates as well. And i find that some ppl are lacking in their appreciation and care and concern... Don't have to say it out but lil actions do touch ppl deep down and will be able to last through the most stressful period. i miss my darlings cos i know that they will relieve my stress by alot. BUT NOW FANG AND DAN ARE WORKING! Hwee that busy girl dunno when will she be free. lol But then we will still be meeting up very soon!=)
Well, thats what we will all learn in a group. I won't get tired of putting others before myself but sometimes i just hope that ppl dun only look for me when they have problems or need help in doing something that is not so nice to do. Sometimes ppl say how u treat ppl, it will be how ppl treat u but i think its a matter of how much u owe a person.. I was so hot this morning cos of my lack of sleep. i slept less than 5hrs and due to my body condition i was not really in e best of mood and i hate to be blamed when its a team's thing. Sorry if i did hurt in my words. But i managed to control myself and make things look like its normal. But then i will definitely miss this group as they are in a way good just that communication often break down between one or two. And sometimes ppl expect me to ask them instead of they asking me. And get blamed for not telling something or something that is wrong which they are in class too so why me again. well, its no wonder i am always sabo-ed to be the leader cos no matter what i will still be. its just a label to me. Enough of it, the happy thing is that its going to end after mon 6pm. Which for e first time i am scare of a presentation cos our independent marker is Dr Tan, dunno who is he.. But whoever lecturer hears his name will react this way. Err dr tan is a fair marker, as long as u explain ur things well, will be alright. Nobody says he is okay dun worry. And Mr Yong specially gathered us to tell us abt his expections. Not a good sign again... The most interesting part is that both lecturer dunno java and they are grading a java project. lol Maybe i am thinking too much. Presentation is nothing to me, small case=x Jia you to my team!=)
Anw heard that Botanical garden is having some garden festival or what de.. attracted my attention. maybe mon then go find out more. hee. Better to balance between studying and realxing or not i might go crazy one day.
A lot of things waiting for me to do. Alot of ppl waiting for me to date. Life is too short for me to complain. Life is too short for jealousy, anger, hatred, grudges....
I really dun understand why what i feel is right, ppl will feel its not.... Is it my problem or?
Then after "prize-giving" we managed to study for a while and our topic change again.
Even have a fan club in face book setted up and also logo. It was known as candy's historical moment.
