Finally its friday! fri is my favourite day out of 7 days=) I THINK I AM SERIOUSLY STRESSED TO A HUGE EXTEND! Everything is piling up and its like we are just rushing to meet deadlines. And i tot team mates are for us to rely on and share e load together? Why is it that when there's something cannot solve then push.. there u go.. I dun wish to say too much.. i know i sld not be complaining here. But i just want to say out to make myself feel a lil better. Yest's presentation practise was not a good one as i was struck and my tutor told me i am too nervous and not prepared.. first time i feel so stress before a presentation and i did prepare but there's nothing much for me to say for my slides. Nvm i will do my best on e actual one and score. Presentation can save me from getting better grades, i knew that so must do it. And maybe i sld suggest presenting my own functional spects. I notice when i m stress i start to act weirdly like thinking that i am doing too much for others. haha Many things to be donw this weekend. really spoils my mood=( A lot of my friends birthday falls on next month, so i have to balance between both and my week 4 5 6 is so scary that i dun even dare to think.
One more thing i want to complain is that why so many young boys and GIRLS are smoking their life away! Everywhere i see ppl smoking... Esp the shelter to and from sch, its terrible! i have to stop breathing for a good 60secs.Its esp amazing when u see pretty girls smoking. what a waste! not to forget those who scold vulgar. so irritated with one of e guy. we collided into each other at the lift and he scolded me, but i still said sorry to him. he gave me a shocked looked which i choice to ignore. i sld have smile back at him nicely maybe he might feel bad abt it huh.
Just now i was watching the 9pm show.. And it makes me wonder where has all e faithful guys gone to?? Why isn't there insurance for marriage?? Why there's no medicine for broken hearts?? Last time i used to think guys are the one who are majorities of those who betrayed a commitment in a relationship. but right now i see that girls are equally bad. really cannot imagine how terrible the society has become... Where are morale values? Well come to think of it.. i myself have not done much to salvage the situation.. What is life after all to human? If this is ur only lifetime, will u do something more meaningful and stop the cycle. Okay on the brighter side of life.. There are still really nice ppl whom may not believe in putting a halt to the cycle but yet are nice and cherishes their life well..=)
With that its time to get back to work. Jia You!
zhen is tickled with love at 10:10:00 PM
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Wednesday, October 29, 2008
wow i think bio is quite fun too! i brought my heavy book to sch cos i wanted to read up more on it as benji had asked me to helped him with some questions after sch... He told me bio but shot me with maths questions too. zzz. Why now standard so high ar, or izz i too lousy?=x Candy they all were thinking i must be crazy studying bio when we are already stress enough with presentations... And when i met him i was able to solve 2 out of 3 of his question. Wish him all e best in his studies cos i see how much effort he had put in lately. 15 more days to go! oh ya btw, benji.. remember ar, u say today's physics was chicken feet u better get A1 or not u owe me a meal!=p And rmbr dun let other things affect u now, talk to her after u finish ur exam... All the best in reaching ur target...
Presentation tmr... And i was asked to present the 3 slides that has lesser things to talk abt cos they say i am good at crapping something out.zzz On my way to shopping arcade saw a girl whom both of us find each other familiar but we cant remember where we have met.. In e end she ask me am i from Fo Tang. i know she must be one of e QSN..
Hai poor kc... he is so emo cos of his project team and i dunno why am i feeling bad for him cos its like if he is with us then he wont be so miserable. i think sometimes its not just abt u alone can work well with others but others can work well with u? 2 way transport. Lmcb, my team is always those wont so slack de. Sometimes very stressful but u see u are actually not the worst its some consolation ba. but then again my heart goes to him when he told me abt it and i dunno how i can cheer him up. On top of that he had lost 2 PSPs.
Argh! what a bad day to end off with! But well i have done my part. or rather more than my part. Its time to concentrate on my own work and not those lil ones. Sometimes i dunno if i am being too obsessed over getting appreciated or am i just grumbling for fun. Cos sometimes i can be so angry that i can just feel that why after doing so much thats what i get back in return. But i am also easy to change my mood from moody to happy. Just cos of that lame dragon i am fine after talking to him. He is so lame! Alright the following weeks will be hectic and stressful. Imagine 3 presentation in a week which is next week and 2 on the same day. but i sld not complain so much le cos it's candy's birthday on that day! She is so sian abt wearing formal wear to go celebrate. This is just week 3! Week 4 there's 3 presentation. Week 5 i have quiz(10%). Week 6 i have presentation and quiz(10%). These excludes project and assignment! From week 1 i have been spending all fris doing project and assignment. Now even wed is taken. The good news is that 1)i can reach sch at 10am instead of 9am, 2) i end sch at 12 next thu!(supposed to be 2pm after cancelling of tutorial for IT2290 but then there's a break before e lecture which e lecturer reads from the slides as if giving a presentation=x, so.. skip it!), 3)some of the holidays are on mon(there's still hari raya haji,christmas, new year and CNY). Again i sld not complain cos there are ppl much worst than me. This is e only way i can motivate myself not to feel so bad abt it cos there's always ppl who are worst. For the least i can concentrate on just my work and not others. Don't be discourage yizhen! Jia you! As long as u do ur best dun worry abt e rest.
Morning went to BXB as usual. But today is for post exam gathering. Let the pictures do e talking first..
This is taken on e last gathering.. From now its e pictures taken today. When we reach we discuss abt among e JDYs then we watch AB camp video clips.=) After that we play telephone charage.. There we go!
Then followed by sharing session where we listen to our BYs and also ICs and XTY made a conclusion for the year.
This was a good year at BXB. quoted from zhicheng.. "This is so much nicer that last year which was so dull".. Quoted from jia hao.. "Can we not change BXB?".. This kinda comments really make me a bit bu she de cos its like this year our fate had made this BXB year a really successful one when u see BY tell u that after BXB activity is interesting! And peishan jj is right..we sld bring this spirit wherever BXB we go in e future to impact others. Most importantly we also heard BYs say abt they will attend Ban Qi more.. Their improvement made this year and gg to make next year.. Shuning jj also made a good point abt encouraging them as JDY in future by saying that.. "if u feel ur JDY's love then u sld pass e love and teach what u r taught to e younger generation"
Really happy with her results but then also really wish that she will be more active in QSN ban activity..
Prize presentation!
Most attendance improvement award goes to...... Drumroll!...
Meixuan!
Most attendance award goes to..
Drumroll!
Hwee ching!
Best progress award goes to....
Drumroll!
JiaHao(Alice)!
Announcements.. Look at how attentive jia hao is..
Photo taking with FTZ!
Gong Lian BXB 2008, JDYs and BYs!
Jelly made by mummy and me=)
Eating time! Yummy!
A big thank you to FTZ, all JDYs and BYs!=)
That calls e end of BXB 2008 but a new beginning for all=)
This is what yaling drew for me. I think that e biggest encouragement for me..is just to see how e ppl i have helped made an improvement.
3hrs of recce at Chinese garden yest and a bit of time at ECP is great. i need to relax in order to recharge! Go go go!=) okay i am too high again. haha
i think i am beginning to like gg to sch again. (although i really miss my darlings!) cos there's laughter nearly everyday with candy's presence. and i learnt a lesson today. if u go against her she will make sure she tells everyone the latest news. well i think i am so used to it that i have learnt to stop defending for myself. when they finish making a big hoo haa then thats when they will stop. the more u add on, e longer it will last. seems like e whole world is gg to know it. besides that the major difference is that 2 of my lecturers are so humorous and i can laugh so much in e lecture. laughing is really healthy. on top of that i am always so high recently.hehe! The other 2 makes a summary of what was taught in lecture during tutorial which is another plus point cos i am forgetful and blurred-_-". So all these makes me more concentrated and more keen to do revision. And software enginnering makes me realise that i am more interested in the process behind. Perhaps still early to say all these but i feel that i am quite weak when comes to seeing many codes but i like e sense of accomplishment when i mistaken it that i like java. though it really is e preferred lang cos its easier to understand than e rest. This is making me thinking if i sld continue to put what i learn into use in the future. but i still think dealing with kids and working with ppl is more interactive that working with the computer=x The only thing that is worrying is J2EE its so alien to me and then my friends have to dicourage me by saying how stupid we were to choose that but then since u pay e same amount why not learn something different and not so easy... Tmr there's a presentation which i didnt even preapre cos its not a formal presentation. hee. Besides sch i have been teaching tuition like nearly everyday which is taking up alot of my energy. Based on my disabilty to overwork i think i have to keep reminding myself not to overload and forgo some things.
Today i realised how long my smile had been gone. I was on a very happy mood this morning cos i feel so xing fu to have my daddy's love. He woke up so early to prepare breakfast and lunch for me. i had sch at 9am. He work up at 7am to prepare cos i need to leave house earlier... He even cuts my breakfast into smaller pieces for me cos he know i was not in a good mood and may just skip breakfast. Don't u think thats so sweet of him. I think my mummy is so lucky. But i am luckier=x Anw when i was walking to the bus stop i saw an old man.. He was sitting on e wheelchair and his maid was pushing him. From his face, i could see that he was not happy and felt miserable. So i had eye contact with him then smile at him nicely. And i saw his sunshine smile. it was a really nice morning to start with. So as i continued my journey to sch.. i smiled all the way. i wonder if ppl tot i was crazy=x Then on my way back i saw another old man. He was not on wheelchair but he needed a walking stick to help him walk. He too had a miserable frown on his face. Again i gave him eye contact and smile at him. He too smile back with a big nice smile. After we past each other he still turned back to me and look at me. I guess he must be thinking someone smiled at me? SO today i really understand what it means by a smile is an international language. It's also a sign of hope...
Back to sch. i think this is horrible.. its only the 4th day of sch and i can feel my workload piling up. Looks like junwei was right.. no such thing as honey mood is year 2 sem 2..=( Next week, week 2 we are already having a presentation. Good thing is i am more or less satisfied with my team. For SWENG we have JunLong(who is quite nice so far), for JavaEE(major project) we have boon ping(integrator), ying xiang(leader), of course they are nice cos they saved me from being e leader. I can't imagine it cos its stressful enough for me. And imagine u working really hard and also u got other commitments which definitely added up to many more times busier but then in e end u share e same grade in fact lower.. i dunno if i am selfish to say that, but i think i had been too nice to the extend ppl take things for granted. i hate to do that.. i dun mind doing more work but then i just dun see why i sld now when everyone at e end of e day are just selfish. Shall not let all these affect me, i need to smile more.=)
Alright i shall do e other updates another day, got many things to do. -camp proposal -prepare for next week's presentation -research on struts -read up project guide -do elearning for DMID -accounting tutorial All the above by mon. Good luck to me...
I am like teaching tuition nearly everyday. And compare our work. i feel like i sld have treasured my pri and sec sch lives more. but then actually i did and enjoyed very much. Unlike this complex world where i dun hope to grow up to see them. hai... SMILE!=)
Yest i was talking to fang then we were saying abt future... And our partners... cos both of us are not attached but we both have e common problem. What is true love? And is there really true love in this world. I feel that definition of true love is like ur life... Are u a successful person only can be seen on the day u die and how many ppl pay respect sincerely and feel its a lost to lose u in front of ur wake. True love is like walking together in e same path even though u both are not healthy and well. Then this morning when i was going to sch.. at the traffic light i saw a old couple. They were holding walking sticks each on their hands. They were not holding hands or hugging each other but u just can see that they are very loving. How many ppl can really be like them.. the answer remain unknown. And when they board the bus was even more sweet. The man helped his wife up the bus then when his wife was up there she gave him her hand to support. I was behind them and watching and didn't bother to help them cos they are helping each other so well! I feel happy for them cos they showed me the positive side. I just jia you to conquer my fear, fang too jia you kay!
Anw sch's been bad cos seriously missed my class.. why 3 time table? why such confusion? but then the person planning the time table also not easy. its difficult to satisfy everyone... But still quite sad. I imagine myself doing the communication again. Well i don't hope to be appreciated but say something nicer. Maybe i am thinking too much but then why is it that u all make it sound like ohh usually i am the one being "thick-skinned"... it sounded like i wanted to get close to them. I am actually so afraid cos of many experiences. My friend told me that they are just jealous. but then i dun understand what is e purpose. So i shall just continue to act blur and pretend like i dunno what u r talking abt.. Since thats what i am good at and always succeed in making my life less miserable. i also have feelings want lo but then i sometimes just hide it and let it pass cos i dun hope to make others miserable too. but dun go over limit. i can be nasty when i want to... Have a feeling that i will be lost in my world cos i have so many things in my brain now. its gg to burst. can't wait for exam and O levels to end. But quite used to it.it has been like these for 2 years. My new sem resolution.. -Sleep before 11.30pm on tue wed and thu. -Do all tutorial and reading up before class. -Do revision every week for every module. I seriously need to help myself or not i can go no where.=x Okay its an emo day. Enough of these. I should not be an unhappy girl!
Again i am feeling bad for gossiping abt her sometimes. reading her blog makes me feel so bad. i should really reflect.
Today is the first day of Year 2 Sem 2. It was raining cats and dogs when i was abt to leave house, so i waited for e rain to be lighter. Candy and peiwen went to get notes for me first. Then when rain not that heavy le i went to take bus. saw a girl at the bus stop waiting so i shelter her and she finds me weird instead of saying thanks! Anw reach sch it was a long queue! Then my classmates keep coming so we had to keep counting. i was like their calculator counting all the amounts MENTALLY and nobody bother to help.-_- Then we went for lunch before we go for acct lecture all the way at blk D. then went to shopping arcade to get the MS disc. We went to cheers to walk walk and the chocolate session was so empty haha! And bless me, daniel is in the same class as me for 2 modules! I can't stand his nonsense. Just wish me all e best. Then its J2EE. 1st lesson nothing much then after that we have to think of assignment grouping and what to do. Our topic is struts and thanks to pw i am the leader again! NO MATTER WHAT I WILL MAKE HER THE PROJECT LEADER! sabo me la! And only 3 of us so we need another 2 from another class and mr lam had to crack his brain to group us. lol. Bless me again. Then break. Slack. Play game. Then is our last lesson which is DMID. looks fun=x then quickly finish my work le then can go le. SO off i ran to the bus stop and comes 72, then change 153 and walk at superwoman pace to FT. reach there 8.45pm and they qian gong -ing. LMCB.=) After QZ, TZ ask me dai dong du jing and sing songs. nearly want to faint cos always very sudden to me=x Then TZ still say just choose any song to sing in e end i ask them choose 2 they choose 4. Stress lo. After that then we QS eat and went home. This is my first day of sch...
this song is perfect to describe what i think now.. Everybody's changing You say you wander your own land But when I think about it I don't see how you can You're aching, you're breaking And I can see the pain in your eyes Says everybody's changing And I don't know why So little time Try to understand that I'm Trying to make a move just to stay in the game I try to stay awake and remember my name But everybody's changing and I don't feel the same (instrumental) You're gone from here Soon you will disappear Fading into beautiful light 'cos everybody's changing And I don't feel right So little time Try to understand that I'm Trying to make a move just to stay in the game I try to stay awake and remember my name But everybody's changing and I don't feel the same (solo) So little time Try to understand that I'm Trying to make a move just to stay in the game I try to stay awake and remember my name But everybody's changing and I don't feel the same
i can feel my stress piling up high high.i know i like to stress myself but then i just can't help it. Kids are having exam but its like as if i am having exam cos i am more worry than themselves and their parents.. amazing right. i had a short tuition with benji today cos he needs help. and imagine i had camp meeting from 9.30am-1pm. we sat together and discuss maths only but we took 3hrs plus. at night went for DZB i was trying so hard to concentrate. anw i have 3tuitions with yaling starting from this week and now benji hope i can help him AND HIS FRIENDS till Os at least once each week. HIS FRIENDS IS LIKE 6!-_-" imagine surrounded by 6 lil boys. omg! on top of that there's camp, there's sch. there's many unsolved problem. i hope that all the chats turn out well or at least i hope there's a conclusion. i think that its good enough to stop them down from their fast pace and start reflecting. most importantly, they told me they know they have changed. e scariest thing sld be u dunno u have changed ba...
for the first time my sun is free!!! cos bxb at gong lian stop le. so actually was supposed to dai ke p4 p5. i dun have much confidence in upper pri work cos i was always dreaming in pri sch. thank goodness JXB had been postponed to 2 weeks later. or not i wont be able to submit a good book report tmr. i shall enjoy my last day of sch holiday!!!
One more thing which makes me really sad. Daddy is gg Taiwan on the 29th nov-7 dec, mummy gg Shanghai on the 14th dec-24th dec.=( Taiwan i can't go.. But Shanghai still in consideration. How i wish i can be like daddy and mummy.. But they worked hard for their first 50 years ba. So i strongly encourage them to go esp mummy.. she needs to see e world more.
Anw just now my friend show me a link. Museum of Broken Relationship!http://www.brokenships.com/ what nonsense sia!
This song is so interesting. actually the lyrics only. if anyone want the song, i have too. just drop me a tag or msg=) A love that will last I want a little something more Don't want the middle or the one before I don't desire a complicated past I want a love that will last
Say that you love me, say I'm the one Don't kiss and hug me, and then try to run I don't do drama, my tears don't fall fast I want a love that will last
[chorus] I don't want just a memory, give me forever Don't even think about saying goodbye Cuz I just want one love to be enough And remain in my heart till i die So..
Call me romantic, oh I guess that is so There's something more that you oughta know I'll never leave you, so don't even ask I want a love that will last forever I want a love that will last
[chorus] I don't want just a memory, give me forever Don't even think about saying goodbye Cuz I just want one love to be enough And remain in my heart till i die So..
There's just a little, more that I need (more that I need) I wanna share all, the air that you'll breathe I'm not the kind of girl to complicate the past I want a love that will last forever I want a love that will last always I just want a love that will last I want a love that will last
And this song.. So nostalgic. Way back into love I've been living with a shadow overhead I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed I've been lonely for so long Trapped in the past I just can't seem to move on
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away Just in case I ever need them again someday I've been setting aside time to clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I wanna do is find a way back into love I can't make through without a way back into love
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine I've been searching but I just don't see the signs I know that it's out there There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light Not somebody just to get me through the night I could use some direction and I'm open to your suggestions
Yest was a really crazy day for me. can u imagine i suggested visiting mrs lim poh yin when we reach marine parade! And then we called and she still rmbred me, but she took awhile to rmbr who is meidan. Probably she taught me for more years. And we had a good time there. Now that we have left SJC, we just talk abt what we want. And we seems so like friends rather than teacher and student. i like that feeling but of course still respect her. And she is still as dramatic as she was in history class. Reminiscening the past with a teacher was even more interesting. And also heard her say more abt a teacher. I think like what she says. "just do ur fair share, don't need to rise so fast. teachers' job is to teach not to get high pay and good bonus." for that i really admire her. cos some teachers.... hai.. We didnt went to the beach in the end cos we chatted for so long.. and it was raining and dark already. So we went to eat and chat again. I dun understand why the world and ppl change so much and so fast. i tot that i can take it. but not so. i cannot accept ppl growing up too fast. Perhaps dan is right i dun want to grow up. living in my small naive world where r/s between ppl are not so complicated. But i think that if growing up means becoming more petty, more jealous, more easily angry, more practical, more hyprocritical then i rather be a baby who is happy all the time and forgets things quickly. That way everything will be simplier and also everyone will be happier. I think that life is so short and stressful, we sld not let all these things add on to our stress... Really feeling so down abt these whole thing but i am really tired, i need a break. U ppl are tired but i am more tired sandwiching in between. why am i putting in so much effort, i really dunno. So for now, u all dun want to do anything, i won't do anything too. Its more tiring that running 100 rounds on the bball court...
After analysing the time table, i think its not that bad actually. cos at least i can be home earlier on wed and fri thus i can come home for lunch and tue i only start school at 2pm so i can eat at home too! Thu might have to eat abit cos 9-4. so far mon is e worst. hope that chu yi shi wu and RCB dun falls on mon.-pray hard-
HELLO WORLD! i am so happy! this morning, i was so scare that i will hear what i dun feel like hearing after going for the "final" checkup. But then it was e direct opposite! i dun have to see him anymore unless something happen. which is like TOUCH WOOD. So i was being so high all morning. That i could not get back to sleep though i am really quite tired cos i never really get into sleep last night after chatting with js. It is so complicated and i cannot imagine what i heard alright! But then of course with that i have MANY restrictions. Knowing that i like swimming alot he emphasize that i sld not even go near the pool! But nvm i am still happy that he says i dun have to see him and i dun have to shift my bone somemore. hee But in e end after adding up the things he said its ONE WHOLE LIST! AGAIN there he goes. ur posture... and i think i was so rude to stop him in between cos no matter how many times he gonna say it still kinda depends on me.
i think i need to get my phlegm out. i keep choking onto them! He gave me cough micture but i dun have cough! Since it such a good start to the day and i am going to ECP after ice cream and before dinner! The place and people is perfect but i hope the conversation will be too. Maybe i am in such good mood i will be nice and patient? haha But its really getting complicated.
zhen is tickled with love at 11:21:00 AM
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Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Yest had nearly the whole day with fang!
Early in e morning we met at hg interchange then we walk to hg stadium to do "2.4km".
Then trainer fang ask me to do lots of stretching. Not bad the feeling that can stretch any distance i like is shiok! but then also not too much, heaven get approved yet=x
After that we start our running. We were not the only crazy souls jogging at 8plus in e morning.
We didn't finish 6 rounds cos fang was out of breathe le. Not bad i still can tahan though my nose is so blocked and i have problem breathing properly. I really miss PE lessons! why poly no PE?! so unhealthy lo!=x
Place to eat got 4. place to exercise only 1. if swimming pool counted then 2. but then swimming pool like so cannot make it=x
Anw after that we rested for a while then we take bus go interchange, dar take train home i walk home. rest slack and bath then meet her again at 12.30pm.
We went to douby de TCC to slack and chit chat abt our recent life and updates and also talk abt something i want to talk to her abt.
So we kinda sat there for 2hrs plus eating wedges and drinks only. Fang asked for more cheese for skyjuice and a better cushion seat. i wonder did the waiter blacklist us=x
Then we decided to walk around cos it is still early from the time we are supposed to meet hwee. and can u imagine u walked nearly all e shopping centres! Whole of plaza sing, john lil, cenileisure, heeren, ngee ann city and taka(a few rounds in search of the pouch shop fang want to buy), wisma, lido(isetan) and far east. I think i am so pro. it has been so long since i walked so many shopping centre in one day!
Then when we were tired we find seats to slack and were asked to do a survey, while doing that guy talks so much that we can't concentrate on the survey at all and i think he is a very funny guy who insist on his thinking and he can keep saying. Hello! u're asking us to do survey not hear ur personal opinion. And he talked non stop for 10mins.
Finally we called hwee and she said she is bathing so she will reach town in an hour. we decided to walk back to plaza sing slowly. met her on e way so we were all so excited plus her hair was hot hot topic. she cuts it super short! shall show a picture of her that i kope from dan's blog!
Then we were also scolding her of her stupidity of signing up to serve NS. i can feel some guys will feel like beating her up. But we know its useless. she likes it.
Then we had dinner where i was forced to eat more cos they say i slim down again. Which i dun feel it at all. And starts to complain how tofu i was. And i was molested by 2 BT darlings!=x
But well, i sld be proud of that cos i get special treatment all e time. its like as if i move i will hurt myself. And like i am super fragile. will break if touched. yes i always injured myself but they are forever so kua zhang! Then we went to carrefour to walk walk, tired went mac sit down and slack till we feel like moving. It was definitely a good day out. Though we dun meet very often but then our friendship is a mystery.
However one missing.. to be serious.. i dunno what i can help this time round. i am so tired abt being in e middle also.
Why u ppl are seeing each other more than i see any of u all.. yet.......
the feeling of the more i say also wont help and helplessness is totally terrible.
Then we travelled to vivo and back to hg and sk respectively.
Friendship..yes, its a 2 way transport. give and take, understanding is also a key..
its quite sad to see what is happening and i cant salvage the situation..
Its seems small yet big. i want to try it one more time then i shall give up. which is tmr. now i have to have 2 dates with same group of friends. how pathetic.
i think that ppl will change as time past. no matter what. some changes may be good, some bad, some neither.
But accept the changes if its not that bad a change. Then things will be alright. its such a small thing that i sometimes feel wasting time solving it.
anw enough of that!
Sch's starting!
And my timetable is not marvallous but not that bad too. just that i have 2 modules with 2hrs lecture. faint. and a module at another side of e sch.=(
hwee's new hairstyle..
Year 2 sem 2 time table..
zhen is tickled with love at 10:45:00 AM
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Sunday, October 5, 2008
Sunday! BXB as usual. And my dear BY. say properly he want come de and morning gave morning call everything say properly. when i reach gong lian ft he sms say he not coming and no matter how i call and sms him he dun want reply. So reach gong lian ft but then no key so went down and met ming xian ming fu and family but then i dunno who they are just find them so familiar. Then after awhile their mummy was talking on e phone then she say what 13 floor turn right 2 times, i was thinking isn't that gong lian ft?! so i turned to look then she say she saw someone wearing yellow then put me on e phone then was junhao. diao. funny lo then called ps jj and then we went up tgt.. e key was under carpet! FTZ so cb lo, so risky she also put. then she still write notes to remind us things. haha. Then settle everything le, wanted to check whether lin shi need JDY ma, but ps jj say maybe i stay at gong lian teach mingfu then xinyi no need come cos she not sure the way also. And it was consecutive p6 maths problem sums question for the whole 2.5hrs! the worst thing is 3/4 of it are speed de. wah! i nearly brain dead. But then good experience cos i always dun dare to try p6 de maths. Then after bxb, we sx then DJ and JDY stay for awhile then we leave le.
Daddy and mummy came to pick me up for lunch. We went to fortune centre(bugis) and there got 6 vegetarian stalls!!! Went to 素食飘香 to eat. Not bad. Then we walk around awhile then went home rest le. Cos i still having fever.. Then home to rest till night time then go out to eat.
Went to marine parade to have dinner. NorthSouthEastWest: blk 89 marine parade central #01-750 NICE! marine parade is a top rated for me now. cos there's food, shopping centre and ECP! Perfect!
Tmr gg jogging wit fang then we gonna slack and chit chat before we meet hwee for dinner! Long time never meet my darlings le. Finally we can meet up before sch reopens.
Before i go to sleep..Something to share.. 通往开悟之路只有一条，那就是正路。 人的生活方式只有一种，那就是美德的生活。 做人的方式只有一种，那就是高尚。
zhen is tickled with love at 11:15:00 PM
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Friday, October 3, 2008
Back from my 3days 2days stay over at my aunt's house.
It was surely tiring yet an enjoyable one. cos kids. they are my love! Day1 Early in e morning, my parents and i set off to go have breakfast at blk 529 then buy stuff at supermarket. And we sure buy a lot. i go there stay 3days, my mummy tot i stay 3months...-_- Then actually we wanted to go to grandma house to fetch her to go aunt house but then she was not well and dun feel like gg out. due to time constraint, we didn't visit her.. i feel so bad. i wish i have more time to be with my love ones.
So.. we reach aunt house but zacchaeus and claudia abt to go to sleep. Then we slack there, i was stoning. Last time young i go aunt house sure is play with toys cos they buy lots and lots of toys for me but then now all become my nephew and niece's toys. they are antique lo.=x Even my lil piggy bank, i mean micky bank(cos its micky) had to be given to claudia but the money belongs to me. omg! they add up to $40!
Then evening my daddy went to work and mummy stayed till night time. I was making some test for yaling then the book got many pictures and claudia count them for me and she got it right. omg! Then played with claudia and read her books cos she keep ask me to read to her! I read 3 lil pigs for at least 5times. And when i read she will keep point to me and say the wolf is bear. i told her so many times its wolf!Then in e end she change to other animals such as squirrels and ladybird. She is really a smart girl. i tell her 1 time, she can remember one. And she can differentiate all the different colour with the exact pronounciation!! She is only 2 and a half years old! And she know nearly all the cartoon characters too. Then in e end, i was so tired so i rest then she say ah yi good night. That was when i pretend to sleep and she also sleep. So i am actually causing her to sleep late cos i was her playing mate.
Next morning woke up at 7 to bring the 2 kids to sch! Came home and rest then eat breakfast and off we go to fetch the kids again. Ppl who past me was like looking at me with weird reaction! Reminds me that time i bring claudia go playground then got auntie tot is my daughter! What a typical house wife will do, make kids sleep and bring them to sch and back from sch! but i am not one!!! Then when they sleep, i do my things lo. When claudia wake up then play with her cos zacchaeus went to study another lesson to help him de at jurong east. Kids are really so carefree and they are really adorable. She can play peek a boo 100times and still dun feel tired! Then aunt found out that claudia had fever. but she was playing so happily. so i took her temp and she was 38degree! So wait for her maid to come back then she gave her medicine but she did not get better so had to go see doc, and its all the way at my house there. Zacchaeus was crying really badly and rolling on the floor, he is really a strong boy. very tiny but he got more strength than me! Even more than my aunt. Both of us try to grab him but can't and he shit! So both of us, one top one bottom. The worst is that he dun want my aunt help and keep grabbing onto me.. Play with kids make them dun cry i still can. ask me help them to clean up and wear pampers, i m not trained! so he went without pampers.lol And he keep asking me to carry him. put down only he cry loudly. argh! so stress lo.
3rd day which is today. claudia didn't go to sch cos her fever was 39degree. Had to entertain her alot cos she is a lil grumpy due to her sickness. one min she want this cd, next min she want another. one min she want to colour the bear book, the next she want the pooh book, one min she want to paste her stickers, the next she want to draw. in addition to that, her flu was so bad that it kept flowing.. so on top of entertaining her with her needs i still had to clean her nose and it was really tiring. mums are never easy role. but it still dun make me dun like kids.=x And now i myself caught a flu and my throat a lil not well.zzz After the weekends, i have exactly one more week to the end of my precious holiday. Can i turn back time? i dun want to move on!=x It will only become more challenging and stress as our age add on=(
