Yest i was talking to fang then we were saying abt future... And our partners... cos both of us are not attached but we both have e common problem. What is true love? And is there really true love in this world. I feel that definition of true love is like ur life... Are u a successful person only can be seen on the day u die and how many ppl pay respect sincerely and feel its a lost to lose u in front of ur wake. True love is like walking together in e same path even though u both are not healthy and well. Then this morning when i was going to sch.. at the traffic light i saw a old couple. They were holding walking sticks each on their hands. They were not holding hands or hugging each other but u just can see that they are very loving. How many ppl can really be like them.. the answer remain unknown. And when they board the bus was even more sweet. The man helped his wife up the bus then when his wife was up there she gave him her hand to support. I was behind them and watching and didn't bother to help them cos they are helping each other so well! I feel happy for them cos they showed me the positive side. I just jia you to conquer my fear, fang too jia you kay!
Anw sch's been bad cos seriously missed my class.. why 3 time table? why such confusion? but then the person planning the time table also not easy. its difficult to satisfy everyone... But still quite sad. I imagine myself doing the communication again. Well i don't hope to be appreciated but say something nicer. Maybe i am thinking too much but then why is it that u all make it sound like ohh usually i am the one being "thick-skinned"... it sounded like i wanted to get close to them. I am actually so afraid cos of many experiences. My friend told me that they are just jealous. but then i dun understand what is e purpose. So i shall just continue to act blur and pretend like i dunno what u r talking abt.. Since thats what i am good at and always succeed in making my life less miserable. i also have feelings want lo but then i sometimes just hide it and let it pass cos i dun hope to make others miserable too. but dun go over limit. i can be nasty when i want to... Have a feeling that i will be lost in my world cos i have so many things in my brain now. its gg to burst. can't wait for exam and O levels to end. But quite used to it.it has been like these for 2 years. My new sem resolution.. -Sleep before 11.30pm on tue wed and thu. -Do all tutorial and reading up before class. -Do revision every week for every module. I seriously need to help myself or not i can go no where.=x Okay its an emo day. Enough of these. I should not be an unhappy girl!
Again i am feeling bad for gossiping abt her sometimes. reading her blog makes me feel so bad. i should really reflect.
