Apologise to her that i did not attend her daughter 1 month old party this morning. I could have went after bxb but i chose not to. Cos i am afraid to face her. Dunno why. Feel like she is not the friend i know. But then since i heard from dan that she and her baby's father(not her husband) have seems to mature quite a bit i feel more secure for the baby girl, Shayenne. She is lucky and unlucky to have a pair of young parents and a mother who have already prepared to give her the best. But i think mainly why i cannot accept is that they didn't plan to have her. Its just like luck.. Maybe i am still having traditional thinking when these things are getting so common. But still i cannot take it that someone my age has already become a mother. Perhaps i am jealous that she have a baby of her own or whatsoever. Kids are cute, yes. i love them, yes. But if not planned and settled well, even worst go to the extend of hurting ppl who have love and care for u because of a "guy" not worthy of ur love, no. In short i m just not mature enough and too young to handle a baby on my own. Maybe girls are naive and soft hearted.
After bxb i went to hg mall to wait for mummy and then i was walking around and met geraldine. She was too surprise to see me so she shouted from a shout for me! i was so embarrass cos i find ppl looking at us. We went to level 4 to chit chat awhile before she left and my mummy came. After eating went to buy things from NTUC. Saw a very pretty, sweet and cute girlgirl. But she lost her palm and fingers.. So poor thing. Then went to see furniture once again. I am really very busy to think abt all these. I dun have enough brain cell to kill.. Something which is making me so sian now. i hate to be the cause of something, esp quarrels.
Dinner time.
Take care everyone.=) "It is not the magnitude of our actions but the amount of love that is put into them that matters."
