These few days i am reading this book titled demaged and i m reading it at a slow pace cos its simply too incredible how a young child can be tortured in this way. I am really fortunate to be in a family that both my parents love me more than anything else on this earth but then i know they love, i know they do everything for my good and don't wish to hurt me. But I still don't appreciate some of the things they do or say. Though i am not a rebellious kid who openly argue back at them, inside me i did show dissatisfaction. Perhaps i really should reflect.. They can do wrong things too cos they are afterall human. They can don't admit their mistakes, cos they have no right to be commented by a younger generation.. They cannot control their anger on some of the things while i can pretend i never see it because after all i don't have to do anything abt it. I can just see what's going on, feel bad abt what's gg on, but still remain calm because they will settle the things and give me what is best for my future. I guess what i am going through is 100 times better than why otheer kids inside or outside s'pore are suffering. Besides reading that, as promised i also tried to improve on my dao xue wise. I think this has been what i want to see since young. Everybody to be vegetarian! Or at least don't eat meat! Cos really no animal deserves to be the food on the table. When i was younger, i used to wonder, what will happen to the meat when it goes into the stomach? Will it grow into a chicken if u ate a piece of chicken meat?=x I think i have this thinking when one day i accidentally shallow watermelon seeds and my dadd told me it will grow into a big watermelon then i cried and asked him must take out the seed for me. Dunno why i so brainless at that time=x And i am gonna read up more abt vegetarianism first. As i think i failed badly to at least make my poly friend feel convinced that vegetarian food are not boring! I mean probably all my non-vegetarian friends still can't get the reason and my explanation don't seems to get through to them yet. Want to ask them come FT but i am also not convincing enough to tell them that our FT is different from what they had in mind and what they had heard. Sometimes do feel a bit helpless abt promoting yi kuan dao. Maybe i really need to improve myself to make ppl have the trust... It holidays now but i am still so lazy to go out nearly everyday. But i really don't feel like staying at home all days. And if i have a few events in a day it makes me feel so sian. Thats why i seems so busy.. Cos i dun like to go out in a big clique and probably i will feel very weird when someone is being left out. So far heaven meet my pri and sec sch friends yet. As they have work or am having attachments. Anw after saying so much i am going sentosa in a while so i shall just stop here.
